You touched on some of my first thoughts after reading the post. @Clintonaldoyou are and will get a lot of different flavors of thoughts and inputs and advice, but from as strictly a Christian/biblical perspective as I can remember, a few encouragements:
1) Church isn’t a building or meeting or place. “We” the Christians, are the church. It’s written wherever two or more are gathered in His name, he’s there (I believe). We are also called to be in fellowship for a variety of reasons that are good for us, despite it being hard sometimes (or a lot of the times).
2) Singing hymns, songs, music playing, spectacles, etc. is supposed to be an act of worship to God, not for our own pleasures. As mole said, it’s not really supposed to be about us. There are angels and deities in heaven who were solely created to sing holy holy holy and worship, I think.
3) Modern American upper middle class white people churches (which I assume you are referencing) are very much in the land grab of souls business. It seems the modern church mission to win back and grab back the market share of souls they have been lost from Christianity as the secular world got more flat and available to all. Thus it’s a bunch of surface level, Christianity 101 churches just trying to catch the fish.
4) My frustration has actually been because of 3, it feels like church is a waste of time. It’s just mother’s milk when you want solid food, as Paul says. I’ve found that seeking my level of Christian has helped (life groups, men’s groups, bible studies, mission trips, etc.) me to grow my faith, rather than check a box every Sunday and hear the same few stories ad nauseam.
5) Lastly, nothing I’ve said matters and indeed nothing at all matters if your heart is not in it. You can do alL manner of good works and charity and even healing and miracles in His name but if you do it without love, it’s a clangy noisy cymbal. Better to take a break and search your heart maybe and rediscover your gratitude and love and faith then just trudging through luke warm IMHO.