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I figured I would post an update as part of keeping up with journaling exercises, which I've been slacking on. I've lost track of time a bit on how long it's been since my last drink but I guess that's a good thing. The cravings come and go but that's in large part to due to some of the anxiety issues I've still been dealing with. The therapist I was working with was kind enough to bring in Dr. Francisco Gonzalez-Lima (her husband) to one of our meetings to discuss what he thought might be happening. We spent an hour and half discussing how the nervous system works and how he believed I was using alcohol as a coping mechanism for a deeper seeded anxiety/panic issue I've likely been dealing with my whole life but was never diagnosed with or dealt with. Once I had the panic attack in October 2024, I started developing safety behaviors due to the cessation of alcohol, various medical ailments, and other GAD/PD symptoms that were never addressed. That was one of the most informative and helpful conversations of this whole ordeal over the past few months Dr. Gonzalez-Lima was able to get me referred to one of his partners at UT to craft a PD/GAD treatment plan that they both feel will be highly successful and their data supports it. If anyone else is dealing with anxiety/depression issues associated with sobriety, I'd encourage to look up the work by both Dr. Michael Telch and Dr. Francisco Gonzalez-Lima (both longhorns) in order to get empirical information about what you're dealing with. That's the first step they both make you do if you decide to work with them anyways. I will say that despite having some really good days and some very bad days, my will to not drink is growing and as I become more informed about what is going on with me physiologically. Now that there's a plan in place to help with the mental side of things, I can finally see a light at the end of the tunnel. Please see below for info about Dr. Telch and Dr. Gonzalez-Lima and make sure you are taking care of your mental health. Stopping drinking is hard enough but you wont realize the amount of pieces you have to pick up. Keep fighting the good fight. Glenn https://liberalarts.utexas.edu/psychology/faculty/telch https://liberalarts.utexas.edu/psychology/faculty/fg
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Markets still falling like whoa
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Quick second post. Forgot about double quoting. Yes & no. That's why I did caveat my statement by stating they are proxy data sources and not raw data sources. Comms, regardless of any level, are notoriously worse at introducing truth bias (I.E. people trying to use twitter data for multiple years only to realize it was just a bunch of bots). From a data science lense, it will all boil down to the EDA, data quality, methodology, etc. -
Markets still falling like whoa
GlenFromTheMailRoom replied to Llano Estacado's topic in Business and Markets
I get it. Was just passing it along from a super senior data science practitioner that's also worked in fintech in the past. In fact - I was one of the people summoned to DC by the newly founded CFPB to talk about fintech underwriting & business practices. Bear in mind the CFPB intrusion was warranted by this particular business but that's a different story for a different day. -
Markets still falling like whoa
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That's a fools errand from you data science team. Supply chain data is laggy and non-deterministic at best. They need to be looking at market level, proxy data, looking at the correlations of the industry the business is in to the demand signals for their products, and building derived variables to supplement the credit risk modeling they're doing. -
Thank you for the encouragement. This week is officially been 11 weeks since my last drink, I think. I'm losing track a bit but I guess that's a good thing. I've been continuing with breathing exercises and meditation as well as continuing to see my psychiatrist. Who I'm a bit on the fence about at this point because it's been 4 sessions and she keeps saying we're just scratching the surface. If this is about CBT, then I don't know if my insurance will allow it to go long enough to get the full effect at this rate. I decided to toss the SSRIs largely due to the fact that I can't deal with the side effects right now. I had been doing well on the prozac until a non-related health issue (stomach issues) came up last week and the Dr. switched me off of it and onto Lexapro. I didn't handle the change well and didn't sleep for almost 3 days. The Dr. (a G.I.) said to try to push through it but I need to sleep in order to deal with the other thing that's going on. I'll spare everyone the details of that because it's not tangential to this thread. I had to wind up taking a dose of Temazepam to knock me out last night but was able to get a solid 7 hours in and feel much better today. The lack of sleep really threw me for a loop and I wound up getting some BW done because my body was stressed out. All that came back clear and we're still treating the other thing. I've been looking more into Ketamine therapy as an alternative to SSRIs for the anxiety. I know there's no express lane for this stuff but I also don't want to go the pharmacological route for the rest of my life. The gut issues seem to be at the heart of what is really driving the anxiety and the GI, psych, and an integrative health doctor here in Austin seem to be in agreement with that. My panels from the integrative health visit turned up some interesting stuff. Low vitamin D levels, moderately low test, and thyroid. They sent me some stuff to handle that but I'm holding off the test and thyroid supplements while I deal with the stomach issues. I'd encourage anyone that's recently gotten sober or is considering getting sober to see both a GI and integrative health doctor (make sure they're an actual physician) to make sure your gut is in order. As you get older, that stuff is nothing to mess around with. I still have no desire drink and the thought hasn't crossed my mind. Keep fighting the good fight. Glenn.
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New season, new gear. Been a while (Thanks Mrs. MailRoom for blessing us with two kids) since I've upgraded the setup so I went full bore on everything I've always wanted. Wound up with this - 1W TM QI10 @ 9 degrees with project x hzrdus 6.5 3W TM QI10 @ 15 degrees with mitsubishi tensei x-flex 3H TM QI10 @ 19 degrees with fujikura ventus velocore x-flex Bettinardi MB24 4-PW with KBS Tour X 130's Bettinardi Bronze Finish Wedges in 50, 54, 58. Bettinardi Limited Run BB8 And threw it all inside Ghost Golf Anyday Standbag. Got a social membership at The Hills in Lakeway and have been out on the range pretty much every day since I've gotten it all.
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It's been another week and I just wanted to post an update/journaling exercise. Finding time to put my thoughts down on paper has been hard over the past week or so with this, honestly, being the most difficult part of things at this point. Lately it has felt like my mind and body are turning a corner minus some GI issues that dehydrated me one day and shot my potassium and magnesium levels up - nothing a couple of liters of IV fluid didn't help fix. I've been doing a lot of wellness activity and it has really helped when the anxiety has kicked in. I start and end my day doing breath work and meditation and that has been a great platform for starting my day well and ending it calm and relaxed, meaning hopefully a good nights rest. I did have to go the SSRI route with a baby dose of prozac & hydroxyziene to help manage the anxiety when it creeps up. The good thing is when the anxiety kicks in to gear and I feel an episode coming on, I can tamp it down enough to not have a full blown attack with that only happening once in the past 10 days or so. The GI issues have really thrown me for a loop physically which is a lot of the root cause of the anxiety because a lot of the symptoms mirror other potential major issues per my GI & psychiatrist. Once they both kick in, the feedback loop starts. I did full panels (the hyper expensive integrative health versions) to double check everything and put my mind at ease. Other than low vitamin D levels, I'm healthy as a horse across the board. The plan is to keep up with the meds, meditation, add in some supplements, exercise, and keep seeing the psychiatrist for the next few months when I can start winding down. I'm also down 10lbs of good weight which has been a pleasant surprise. I do really feel like things are getting better but slowly. Anyone thinking about getting sober after heavy alcohol use, I'd caution that your mind and body are likely not as healthy as you might think. The GI issues have fucking sucked, the brain zaps have fucking sucked, and getting stuck in a feedback loop when they both kick in at the same time really fucking sucks. When I look back to when I started this journey, there's a mountain of things I would have done differently but everyone is different and every experience is different. The one thing I will say is get as much help as you can because of those facts. I went at this solo and cold turkey to start and that was the wrong move. There is no silver bullet for this and the sooner one accepts that fact the sooner you can start and even though it will be rough, you'll slowly start to have mornings like I'm having today. Spray tanned, rested, and ready - and feeling great. Yesterday was 10 weeks. Keep fighting the good fight. Glenn
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