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troph

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  1. Talk about the election elsewhere this thread is for the el oh els.
  2. Looks like the horns will be back up to #3…. Sorry dawgs, you gotta wanna be there week in and week out not just when you come to Austin.
  3. Started CRM therapy about 3-4 weeks ago it’s incredible especially when coupled with ketamine, I’m doing 2 hour sessions on Saturday morning then 45 min ketamine on my own meaning no therapy just sit back and relax. It’s an incredible combo, and actually two stellate ganglion blocks for covid and PTSD/anxiety plus CRM and ketamine have really produced some incredible changes and that’s excluding the straight up benefit of the stellate ganglion block on post Covid physical symptoms for which it is as a miracle. on the mental health side that triad is money. CRM includes a lot of breathing work, to establish a connection to the body, then you do a bunch of imagery work to integrate all your trauma and overwhelming feelings and maladaptive strategies for wellness. It’s a bit hocus pocus but truthfully if folks accept the neurobiological benefits of ketamine I would then say CRM is very similar except it’s more active and harder to achieve the trance like state but once you do the work is transformative. it’s designed for complex PTSD, dissociative and attachment disorders. I’m probably officially in the attachment disorder camp with some other trauma / PTSD mixed in. Thankfully I’m highly adaptive and not disabled by it but I’d like a calmer life and this is working really well. https://comprehensiveresourcemodel.com
  4. It was critical to my healing, there is no doubt about it. So I do not criticize it across the board at all. It does alter the physical structure of your gaba receptors though so use judiciously. I’ve found valerian root 400-600 mg to be really great the last few weeks. I also take 50-100mg of quality hemp oil softgels.
  5. And unfortunately mixed with some good shit too. There is no doubt big pharma has a stranglehold on the system and the FDA but Jesus Johnny let’s not toss gold standard double blind control group studies out the window.
  6. Yeah they are awful. I’ll tune in at certain events and times but they are a net negative like social media.
  7. My system was off a little bit more timing less qualitative change. Yeah it’s called benzo belly. No I didn’t really have that. but fuck me the chest pain was legit.
  8. Hydroxyzine is a better med than Benadryl for sleep - it also has anti anxiety, bronchial dilating, and skeletal muscle relaxing properties -and both are H1 antihistamines the only concern with the H1s is the correlation to dementia.
  9. I went cold turkey and didn’t realize I could go .125mg and even switch to Valium and taper further. To be honest though I wasn’t exactly everyday and I wanted off. I think I was a low enough dose to be ok but I probably made it a tad rougher on myself. But I’m done. It’s over. I won’t say never but I will suffer a lot to avoid needing Xanax again. And to be clear I was in a fucking sleep deprivation hellscape when I took it to begin with.
  10. I found all the talk about this and that for sleep especially sleep hygiene was bullshit when I truly needed Xanax and when I was coming off it. And to be clear to heal I had to sleep and it’s the only thing that worked - I tried everything and other meds too. Nothing worked it’s why I had it, and withdrawal insomnia is just something you have to deal with. Thankfully I was mostly healed from post Covid when I came off it. now it’s definitely back to good sleep hygiene, and I think understanding what your brain needs to sleep is critical. Vitamins and supps can be really helpful if there isn’t a serious issue like withdrawals.
  11. I was using .25 mg for overcoming panic attacks and severe anxiety related to sleep and Covid. First it was shortness of breath and then it was sudden jerking awake the moment I would drift off, then it turned into early stage PTSD. I only took it at night and I took it about 50 days out of 80-90. i developed a significant physical dependency. I was never addicted, I took as directed, when needed and when I decided it was time to get off of it I got off of it and did not have a single relapse. But dependency and addiction are separate matters. The problem is Xanax alters your gaba receptors and they have to heal so diet, exercise and sleep (which becomes hard) all matter tremendously. That healing process can take a month. what were my withdrawal symptoms? Insomnia, intense anxiety and chest pain. I had minor ones too like rando suicidal thoughts - they were never a threat they were just odd - I also had agoraphobia too which was bizarre. everyone is different but mine started about day 5 and lasted in an intense way for at least 2 weeks. I noticed improvement at the 23-24 day mark. I’m now 30 days off and I’m certain it’s over. the hardest part is thinking it will never get better but it will. I focused on the fact that my symptoms were not “me” but “Xanax” which is to say they were very real but not borne out of my organic state. I focused on two things - withdrawal is evidence of healing and my body has powerful mechanisms to ensure I get sleep. Those were a huge comfort. i used a hydroxyzine script out to 100mg for anxiety and sleep to augment. I also took the sleep aid I mentioned above along with magnesium glycate (sp?) and valerian root. the complicating factor for me was coming off prednisone and coming out of Covid as my insomnia and anxiety and chest pain lasted from July until now and are common symptoms and side effects of Covid, sleep deprivation, prednisone and Xanax withdrawals so I struggled with is this withdrawals or Covid. It was withdrawals. The rehab content marketing out there is intense and much of it talks about two weeks, I would say 2 weeks of hell and 2 more of getting well, then start from 0 again and rebuild the things you love and need in your life. I never quit tennis but I was not going even 50% and I wasn’t doing much else but work and I would take hikes in the green belt. go slow, use a doctor to help, be gentle and kind and clear out a month to so it tbqh.
  12. Are you signing Flo Rida Welcome to Our House at them? If you aren’t you should.
  13. Man there’s a Tuesday joke there but I’m gonna refrain.
  14. We were at redrocks last year it was raining and the group in front of us were Iowa fans they gave me a Iowa pancho to use but warned me how many people would say go hawks or whatever. I was thinking yeah right, it’s nothing like a hook em. Holy shit, in the hour we were in line waiting to get in I swear it was like 8 folks who walked by and said something. It was insane.
  15. My son is in a select orchestra (French horn) I’ll be sure to keep a watchful eye.
  16. I’d think the rando allegence would be to the feaux Steelers uniforms.
  17. ACC network production value is worse than 7 day old left overs in the back of the fridge.
  18. Now I know the action is at the national Latin convention.
  19. I’ve forgotten what it’s like to drink 😕
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