I get it, man. As a guy who grew up Christian but quickly found my way out of religion as an adult, I don't know how much I can speak to your current struggles if you're wanting to remain connected to the church.
But a decade ago, I would have thought it very strange to share personal difficulties on here, but now I find it therapeutic. (Mostly) strangers who share at least some common background that brought them to this site are able to air greivances, but there is also a wide range of experience and beliefs (yes, even in CR).
There was a time, as a younger man working through depression, when I found speaking to a therapist incredibly helpful, moreso than any meds. This was a Christian dude who I didn't know personally, but he didn't pass any judgement and he listened and responded as a total outsider to my immediate experience. I am still grateful.
Obviously this is not a judgement-free zone, or a treatment center for depression, but sharing personal shit with people who aren't intimately involved, and who may have some understanding of your general background, while also offering differing opinions, can be a useful resource.
I have recently shared family drama on here that is difficult to discuss even with my spouse and siblings, who are generally on my side. But getting the perspective of others who aren't entangled in it daily, or simply venting, has helped me work through a lot of my shit.