I wanted to fucking quit today.
We're trying to close on a $770M project and I'm busting my ass, taking on a part of the proposal where there's clearly a void. My boss came into my office and said she doesn't think my heart is in the project because she noticed that I'm deep in my computer during meetings. Apparently asking questions, and then checking against what I'm seeing in the proposal seems like I'm not paying attention.
She also said when I ask questions to clarify, they come across as repetitive because it may have already been asked. I ask the fucking question again because there were inconsistencies that I wanted to clarify. I didn't want to dump on her, but I told her she asks repetitive questions at least 1-2 per meeting and it's because she's not paying attention.
I've been doing this for 25+ years. I got promoted to where I am because someone (not her) thought I was competent. I don't need people to micromanage me. And just because I'm not telling her when I'm taking a shit, or when I'm going to pick up my kids, doesn't mean shit's not getting done. That's pretty much what I told her. I also told her I thought about quitting and going somewhere where I'm not putting in 50+ hours each week, and another 16 over the Thanksgiving weekend. I think that caught her off guard a bit, but I've honestly thought about it.
Anyway, just needed to vent. I picked up my kid, am going to eat dinner and headed back to the office. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.